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Fear...as I know it!!
Why do we get afraid? What haunts
us? Is it the dark past or the uncertain future? I wish to answer myself some
of my own doubts through this post.
We fall, so that we can learn how
to get up. Still we are unsecure about falling. Most of the time. When we are
unaware of concrete facts, and we go on thinking about it, it leads up to fear.
Fear from the fact that this unawareness could lead us to darkness. If it may hamper my
plans I wish to obtain. If it may lead to my failure, and victory of something
I hate to see winning against me.
Often we give up on our
confidence. It’s not un-natural. Not abnormal. It’s just a sinusoidal trough of
our confidence level. Our daily lives, appear to be the same. But every day
exposes something new to us- something which may be pleasant to our senses or
simply unpleasant experiences. When these unpleasant thoughts clog up our
memory, we cease to see beyond the obvious. We forget the pleasant experiences,
and the achieved goals. Simply because our mind is not able to rejuvenate its
working, and the fear of having more unpleasant experiences loom in front of
New ideas stop coming. And the
We start blaming our abilities.
We often doubt them. We ignore the basic fact that with the same abilities, we
have worked wonders in the past. We start believing that we won’t be able to
achieve what we seek. Not because it is unattainable. Because it is beyond our
ability to achieve it. And thats the point where we need help.
The mind needs to question and answer itself
at times. When we stop having fun, avoid risks, and turn pessimistic, the
chances of failing increase. And this even compounds the problem. Every new
failure not only kills our confidence, it gradually starts taking over our
personality. We are no longer able to look into our own eyes in the mirror. Gods
seem like an escape. Prayers gain priority. And the god within gets ignored. We start believing in
chances more than opportunities to create favourable chances. Isn’t it?
We forget that we have a gift
called time. There is always a second chance. God offers it when we expect it
the least. And often, when the opportunity is back on our door knocking, we are
weeping in the bathroom. Often unprepared. Ready for another defeat. Is that
fair? Is this why we should be afraid?
Today, I saw myself in the mirror
and realized the crisis I am going through. My problem is, I am trying to
prioritize my goals over my calendar. Job to be secured by this time. Marriage
to happen by this time. Loan by this time. And so on. Baah. J
And that’s when I just realized
that these very priorities are functions of time itself. There is no point
plucking a fruit when it is not ripe. Even if I can, the idea of tasting a
unripe fruit is pointless. Life makes no meaning if we stop having fun and give
our free will to time. How can we be so sure of something in the future, when I
am not sure if this razor blade I am shaving with, is going to cut my cheek or
not? I hardly have an idea what’s coming next.
I should be happy with the fact
that I am preparing well. Good education. Great work experience. Loving family.
Caring Girl friend. Supporting friends. And a nice future ahead. I should be
living up every moment available with joy. Not with fear.
Quite possible that I won’t be
able to achieve everything I have dreamt of. Might not get the job I have
fancied. Might not get to settle down as planned. Might have trouble with my
relationships. Things might change. So why should be I scared?
Don’t I have a history which
taught me that not everything is possible at the same time? Haven’t I learned
that failures are as inevitable as success? Haven’t I tasted failures as much
as I have succeeded in life? Am not I standing right now, because I have more
successful things in my life, than failure?
We don’t fail when we lose. We
fail when we give up the hope to win.
Fear is for the ordinary. One
needs to stand up against it and prepare for the fight. that defines the extra-ordinary. Everyday is a new
fight, and as we push to sleep, it concludes a successful day that has been over. A
share of life well realized. And waking up the next day, doesn’t it mean that
we had won yesterday, and should win today as well?? Then, why this fear??
Sitting idle and counting on
chance is an absolute wastage of time. If I want something, I should go and get
it. Instead of complaining about the problems in acquiring it.
What should I be scared of? I have
everything necessarily required to be successful. Just a thought of failing,
which too is just a probability, cannot take away my confidence to succeed.
I am bound to win. It’s not that
I can win; it’s just that I will win. I need time. And there is plenty of it
available as I breathe. The world waits.
I am looking forward to tomorrow’s
morning. A new day filled with challenges. And joy. J
Looks like I cut my cheek with
this razor blade. Three learning’s: 1. Don’t shave at late night. 2. Change
blades frequently. 3. Stop thinking too seriously. J
Piyush, I hope I answered your doubts. Have a nice sleep. Good night.
Asked as a mere phrase by a friend, "Takers eat well....Givers sleep well."The phrase sounds catchy to me, and I am finding a sense of deeper meaning hidden beneath....lets take a dive..... So what this probably means......Lets analyze..
Taker: One who is ready to accept.One who accepts things as they are. One who accepts things without ego coming in between. One who has its wants, his desires before his resistance.
He might be a beggar, a pet animal or a prostitute.he might be helpless,he might not be bothered, or simply he might not be strong enough. He might be the one who takes loan with no hopes of returning it. He might be one even not expecting something from the taker,but if things keep coming, he embraces them, accepts them. He consumes them.he is happy with the way life is going.
So, A taker eats well.
Giver:One who is ready to donate,say; simply give away.One who doesn't accepts things as they are,he/she might try to change it into a better state. One who rejects a…
It has often been suggested by my dear friend HariOm about the devotional obsessive behaviour of River which drives her to go and dissolve in the Ocean. Here is his couplet: "ऐसा भी क्या दीवानापन ऐसा भी क्या प्यार नदी, सागर से मिलने जाती है तू ही क्यों हर बार नदी ?" This often made me wonder the emotions behind depicting this as thoughtless one side obsession of river, which consists of pristine, pure, soft water - to drift and submerge in the vast ocean, which is wild, salty, destructive, immense, unimaginably different and rough.
Well, I figured it out, that it's just a figment of human imagination, and we obviously ignore the real basis of this process. It's not love, it higher than that. It's creation. It's about making sure everything functions.
And even though it looks like a mere one-sided journey, ocean play's its fair role in creating, strengthening and charting the very path of the river.
There is always a better reason for why things happen the wa…